Goa to Rajasthan

I’m having, as of yesterday and even more today, a bit of a rough time. I am sure it has a lot to do with starting my month today and it being a new moon. sigh.
Anyway, I just got to Pushkar yesterday straight from Goa. Goa was fun and relaxing and some partying in there also.
And Pushkar is this town where I spent 1.5 months last year doing business...and the place I met silver two years ago. Actually every time I’ve been here I have some sort of romance develop.
Anyway, perhaps due to expectations from prior years' magic...I am feeling out of sorts. It’s only my 2nd day here and I keep telling myself to suck it up and be patient. But it feels empty here...and different.
And I’m not really interacting with anyone except my German friends from last year who are also back again.
And, par for the course, I am staying in yet another guesthouse with a young male person running it who is WAY too into my business. Just before coming to the internet cafe he came to my room and peeked his head into my curtain while I was lying in my bed. And I snapped and told him never to open my curtain. Dude...even before that I was thinking to move guesthouses. The one I want to move to is full though...I checked this afternoon.

I had a super weird evening one of my last nights in Goa. There was a party and people were really high…and it just got weird. Everything was weird. And in the end I made out+ with a guy who is now in my top 10 hottest guys I’ve ever made out with list…maybe even top 5. I can tell you the story sometime…it’s a good long one and perfect for over a drink. So let’s put it on the shelf until I get back. And if you’ve ever heard one of my recounted theatrical “weird Dwan sex stories”, it’s one of those.

I’m feeling really lonely right now!!!
I don’t like my guesthouse which is so weird because it was my home last year.
Everything’s different here this year. Wanh wanh wanh…mommy…
My German friends who are also here from last year travel with their kid who is 3.5 now. When he is bummed he cries a little bit and crawls on his mommy’s lap and she holds him and rubs his hair and he feels better.
I need that.

Goa http://www.flickr.com/photos/meredith415/sets/72157603964859908/